nice guys

yeah, we finish last.

why is it that a nice, conservative, innocent guy like myself never gets anywhere in life? i am always true to who i am and what i believe in, and this world around me seems to give victories to sluts, liars, assholes, and fake people.

even at my weakest and most humble state, i sit and i wait, as broken and stripped as i could be, only to witness others grabbing and attaining what should be rightfully mine.

and what's more, i even questioned myself and went against everything i believed in for one day and tried to facade a person like those i mentioned before only to find out it felt wrong doing so.

realization: it seems to be a lose lose situation every time.

my last name is pronounced "win" ... shouldn't i naturally win sometimes, too? one would think so. i'll let you know when i do.